My Nana

My Nana passed away today.
And I have lost her.
And I am broken...
I think I secretly thought she would never 
That she couldn't die
Because I was always going to need her
I still need her.
I cannot cook as well as her,
I am not as strong
And I am so mad at God.
She had alzheimer's. It is a mean mean disease.
Maybe the beautiful thing was that I did not ever believe she would go
That I thought thought she will always be there.
I have shock and disbelief
I have guilt
I have anger
and I have fear
BUT most of all I have love. 
I have so much love for her
So much love for the woman who taught me to fry an egg.
To the Nana who would let me drive her shopping
who made me love the grocery store
who taught me how to wear make up
to never leave with out my face on
How to make the best cup of tea
the perfect shade of pink always has some gold
that pearls are perfect for anything
Who chased the boys of the porch when I was 15
She made the best mushroom soup and apple salad and gravy and baconwands
and so much more.
Who made me feel special
Who made me smile
I have lost my Nana
Who loved me...

Katie Fisher Palandri 
06/09/1922 - 06/05/2012 
I loved you so.