Wow this past month has been pretty heavy.  I mean life changing, heart wrenching hard to handle want to run away and hide never to look back maybe live in another country hard.

But that is life, and at the end of the day I am happy with my life to date. Work has been pretty good I have booked a couple wedding recently which is nice. I do really wish I could do the weddings full time but we shall see. Nana has pasted, I am heart broken because I feel like I didn't get enough time. Then I feel like it is my fault that I did not get enough time. I cannot change the past. I have to fill my heart with the memories of what I did have. Here memorial is on July 14 Jerry cannot go due to work so I am sad about that but he never got to meet her (which saddens me even more) but money wise it will work out for us.

Jerry and I started our home improvement projects. I officially have decided that HGTV is a big liar! DIY is not easy it is hard and your house is torn up for weeks and weeks. We also did not sign up for all the water damage from the furnace or the fact that the wax ring on the toilet needed to be replaced or the water lines on the washing machine. So at this time all of those things are fixed, the new floor is put in only in the laundry room and bathroom as of now,and the walls and trim have all been painted but we still have shelves to put up we have to paint and put in the doors, as well as the kitchen and hall way have not even started. Here is the picture so far...

The worse thing about the home improvement is that we went over budget due to the water damage that had to be fixed so therefore the wedding is back on hold. At this rate I have no idea if I will ever get married. Glad I am engaged!!! I get to wear a ring that is super amazing!! The craziest thing about it all is that Jerry has baby fever! Three people in our "inner circle" have all had babies in this past month and all he  keeps talking about is how he is not getting any younger and now he is the only one in his family in a relationship that does not have a child. I feel like that Honda or ford commercial where the girl pauses and says there are so many things I wanna do first!! LOL I want to have a wedding and go to Australia and have a bigger house and be more steady at work. I guess if you keep waiting for the right moment your never ready but I do not think I am quite yet....