I think everyone does sometimes but today I actually cried about it. A couple times. I am not trying to complain, I just feel like the last month has been crazy and I cannot catch up. I have been trying super hard at work to excel since my boss is out on medical leave. I feel like he has never really liked me so now when the store needs support this is a great opportunity to show that I am a real asset to the team. I have taken on a new position with another job in the training world and while I love it, the students are not where I thought they were so I have to take a step back and re-evaluate what I am actually doing to make sure I get them where they need to be, as well as the weddings. Which I wish I could so more of but I cannot seem to get a website up and running which is what I need but I have no idea where to start on that.
That is just work. Then there is home life. I adore my home life but I have behind on laundry and cleaning, the litter boxes need attention, my turtle's tank needs a redo, the backyard need to be spring cleaned considering it keeps getting warmer outside, and the everyday daily things I do.
With that in mind my sister was in a car accident with her best friend she is fine but is scared the crap out of me, we have decided to postpone the wedding because no matter how many jobs I take on we cannot seem to get our $$ in order enough to get ahead and really make a dent in the amount we need to have a wedding, there are a bunch of things going on at Jerry's work that are making me nervous as well as him so he has been more exhausted than usually, which is hard considering he works night so therefore I get nervous if he is getting enough rest and or food to keep him healthy. Which can add to the stress on anyone. Jerry's brother is still living with us and still unemployed, he is getting unemployment and now catching up on rent but it have been stressful because whether he wants to admit it or not (and this is my world to vent in) it is hard on us. He is on a stupid sleep schedule and being up all night he eats while Jerry is at work and I am sleeping which would not be such a big deal except when I come down the next day and go in to the kitchen things are gone that I had in my head that I had and therefore it keeps getting harder and harder to plan meals. Which again makes for more stress because something that I think is planned out is not there any more. I also think that Jerry gets frustrated with me when I get overwhelmed and I really get upset thinking about that.
Please, I am not writing this to make anyone feel bad for me I am just venting. Today was a really bad day and I really need to get my head on straight and get ahead of all these things I just feel like I have no idea where to start. Part of me wants to run away and wish it all away but considering that will not work I was hoping maybe someone had some helpful tips? An idea? A cure?
